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My previous version of erratik.ca was basically a big fat cloud of information. And to a degree, this still is, but with a lot more to it. Almost everything on this site is created through third-party services and fetched from herein.
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Who is Tayana?

a kickass web developer with a kickass plush toy.
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I don't do much design anymore because well, I'm not very good at it. But I still participate in communities like Dribbble, Forrst and LoveDsgn.

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The Redux

I don't blog enough. I just don't. I used to, when I had a website that worked and it was fun to post stuff and have comments and whatnot. But yeah, that hasn't been the case in years. Not until now!

April 30, 2015


A few weeks ago, I decided I couldn't handle this constant state of want for things I cannot have. I decided to stop this completely insane and self-induced deprivation of sexual activity on myself.  It was pretty clear I was starting to feel depressed because I craved touch so much. I miss my love and there's nothing I can do about it but wait. 

April 24, 2015

I will not chastise myself. I will not chastise myself. I will not chastise myself. Is this an acceptable mantra? I think so. But along the way, I forgot that courtesy I did to myself should extend to others, as well. As forgiving as I have become with myself, I'm realizing I took that away from the people surrounding me. As if there was some kind of limit to the well of forgiveness and acceptance that I could take from. I forgot that I had to give that back. That is was only borrowed, to be mutiplied and added to the well. 

April 15, 2015

we try to feel all of it, all at the same time. we want it to be here, at this moment. and when it is, we wonder when the next thing is coming our way.

where is it? why isn't it here? why is it taking so long? i feel like i've been waiting forever... where the fuck is this thing?

really, it's not that we're always waiting for it, it's that we're always searching for it. when it gets to its destination - to us, we already forgot we had been looking for it and we look for it somewhere else.

March 15, 2015
a liquid will usually find a way to fill up the space it's poured into. depending on its viscosity, it will fill up the space faster, maybe not taking care to imbue each tiny little measure of that space with itself.  if the space has irregularities in its enclosing surface -the one the liquid seeks to fill, i'd guess it would not fill every single nook and cranny.
February 19, 2015

I've been asking myself this question a lot as of late: is it wrong to dislike someone? What if you've been trying to understand the reason but haven't come up with any concrete ones. I have read about the Shadow Self.

I know these are most likely characteristics I dislike in myself that I seem not be able to see past this person's. But when is it okay to say, "well, looks like this friendship I want is never gonna happen, I'm just gonna let it go."

October 22, 2014

I'm writing for my dad today, because i've realized how closely linked our moods are, even if we haven't lived in the same country in over a decade. My dad and I have always been kindred spirits. Because we feel so deeply for people we love. To no end, really. And both of us have this disillusion that we do everything we can, in our way, to show that love, without realizing how destructive we can be at it sometimes. 

August 05, 2014

Well, the love affair started a few years ago. First, I was crying because I lived in Calgary. Then I was crying because when I made it, I was to be broke from travelling. Then I was crying because if I was gonna make it without being too broke... by the time the festival was over, I'd be broke from how expensive not only the tickets keep getting every year but how ridiculously over-priced (terrible-tasting) libations have become.

July 28, 2014

I should probably take the time and explain where I stand on this issue. You'll probably find a tweet or two of me saying I'm not a feminist and wanna spit at me because you think I'm anti-feminist. The thing is, I don't think feminism is what most people think feminism is. I think the last couple decades have brought on a new movement, that is not feminism

July 16, 2014

Summer has been pretty damn great to me, from work, to friends, to beautiful weather and good times. There have most definitely been some downs, but so many more ups. I'm increasingly grateful for the beautiful group of people I now call my extended family. They just bring so much sunshine into my life, it's something worth being thankful for, every single day.

May 30, 2014

there are so many things that i don't understand. there's a whirlwind in me that i cannot explain. many rooms to explore but the doors look the same. - daft punk, within

May 22, 2014

I know I said I'd be updating the site soon, but it's summer now, and I have have no will to sit at home do anything. Also, my laptop is slowly dying, so I have even less will to do anything about this. So here's a new post instead of an update.

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